Have you ever come to the place in your life that you have so many questions, you wonder if you will ever get done asking them?

Do you ever find yourself searching, longing, desiring, something.... to finally know that its only Jesus Christ who can really satisfy all that you ever want, need, or will need??

In the darkness, the searching, flailing, questions.... I have come to see that once i have "tasted  and saw" of Gods goodness,
                                                                     mercy,
                                                                    Love,
                                                                   GRACE.
All i want is more.
Because there, in Him,  i find security, peace, and stability.
I can trust Him!!!

He never lets me down,
He only plans what is good for me.
He is jealous of me as His child, and DELIGHTS in me!!!
                                           How awesome is that!??!!!



I just started reading a book called "To fly Again".
I am not very far, but i already got so close to tears.

and i quote " The end result of His presence in our lives is a dep and lastin gpeace. Unlike wordly peace, which is usually defined as the absence of conflict, this peace is confident assurance in any circumstances."


i have been   AM learning that the darkness and questions i face, are meant to draw me to God and that this may very well be right where He wants me right now. Its not seeing if i can just make it through this time. Its going through it throughly SO I CAN BE CLOSER TO HIM, and SO HE CAN REFINE ME!

I am rejoicing. His banner over me is love, and all that surrounds me today, weather it feels good, or is "bad", is for my benefit, and His glory.